Had been few days,

Erm should said as few weeks I never update my blog since the day that I enter nursing college…..

Hahahah~ nursing~~

Which I nvr nvr though that I will involve myself in this field….

First of the day which I came in,I jz play play with it…

But now? No more….

I found my interest in this professional …

Cool man….

I feel so happy to study in medical field which I can know more about the illness and what action should I take to prevent the illness……for now I still duno…

But mayb afterward I will noe…..

My semester have 40 people…tutor said it’s a huge group of us study…

Hahahaha….

Plus I know many friends here…good or bad…they are still my friends….

we come from different place…I came from butterworth….

hahahaah..in this college,i seen to be a 38 person,

Just go kepo kepo nia lah?

There is many things cn share since we come from different place……

So whatever thing we wan to talk we will jz voice out..and no matter wat we will still laugh laugh laugh~~

I think if I still like this after 3years I don think I will not normal anymore…

I will ki siao…~~becos there are soo many assigment and presentation~! 

bullshit, one week about 3,4assigment and oso presentation~

OMG~i try too suit to this new environment~

sometimes,i really dunno how to mix with some sot sot friend~

haha>< haiz....so stress to study  nursing ... when i complain with my mother,i dunno y my mother didnt encourage me and besides saying me stupid and y want to choose this field~

haiz..i cry when i hear it~really so sad~=(

Finally i will started using English to write my blog...

HAHA...it seen to be my ENGLISH　look like very pro.-.-

but actually, i just want to improve my English...xP

so my friend,dun try to peli me har.../_____\

38 days more....

38 days to relax~

38 days to stay with my parents...

38 days more im goin to start my college life~

not to said im scare or wat......

but.....

meet new people...

begining with a new life

jz like girls' generation song ''into the new world''

arggggg>.<

i duno who is going to be my roommate..

nervous man....

jz hope i cn get a good roommate..

god bless me....

please...i beg u...

huh~

9years in penang....

 OMG ...!!!!!! o(╯□╰)o 

is quite a long time for me...

i will leave butterworth and go to penang..

i will miss my family, friend and of couse him....

haha...ヽ(ﾟДﾟ)ﾉ

i am started crazy and wondering... 

study nursing...can i do it ??

can i be a good nurse??

i keep on asking this question myself...

after 38days i will be totally transform to another ppl..

i will work hard..

to get good result......

i will prove it to the ppl tat look down me...

i will....

jz sit there and look at it...

no matter how...

i will prove it...

im better than you......

I  get the offer from the college...

and it is full sponsor by the hospital....

im lucky for get tat offer....

huge number.....

i noe tat my mum eally hope i take the offer from them and study at there...

coz if i choose nursing field i will not worry bout my future anymore...

actually everything is the same....

i will study hard to hit the target by getting good result...

when in secondary school i nvr paid attention to my result...

i alwaz play all the time........

but no more for now.....

i really change....

i was looks down by someone....

i nvr feel anything bad or wat.....

i jz feel tat need think before wana to said anything....

After 3years i already graduate from the nursing college and start to work as a staff nurse in a hospital for 6 years...

woo..long time..o.0

may i find a doctor be my BF... ヾ(●′ε ｀● )ゞ

OMG, i think i am mad....
 

I'm born to be emo.

Well since I'm free now, I shall blogging. I MUST KEEP MY BLOG UPDATED,if not the ms.Winnie will trying to kill me =). Yes, I think that are a lot of people who are simply like that, since always... That's why I don't get how can some people say that they wanna be 'emo' without reasons. But why, why be something your not? I would never wanna be, never could be different that I am now, and always was. Sure there are things that happen and make me to be emo, somehow, even more deep and I'm sure I can change on the better way by working on my flaws but not what someone wants me to be or whatever. I am just fine being alone or silent, I like to think a lot that other people usually wouldn't, kinda morbid but still am caring. Actually, it's not that I like it, but am fine with it.

Yep I think I always listen to the music which' constantly depressed and I completely agree who would want to be emo its just hard and depressing and you are hated for no reason. Seriously, everyone would want to be emo any true emos are born emo and thats it. I mean why would you put yourself through that if you didn't truly very emotional there's no reason just to pretend so you have a defining quality yes we are born to be emo and emo die?

Its the surroundings that you live in or the pain that you have gone through, no one can change the way you feel about life but yourself. Most of the time, It still hurts because people around you will not understand the pain that how do you feel because not all scars show not all wounds heal sometimes you just can't always see how someone feels. And they have no idea how hard you tried to forget about the pain altho Its been so long since it happened. Because you know 'Sometimes things do not always goes the way you want it to be, but at least try to forgive & forget and release yourself from the hurt and be happy'

My head is so empty I don't even know what to say. okeyy so right now I'm sitting here in my room alone and thinking about all the shitty things in my life. I'm always depressed, always moody, always feeling down, dejected and such. Whats wrong with me? When am I gonna get that shit outta my head? All these things just come to me automatically. My life, my days. I'm just wasting my time here, doing nothing. Just like a trash. I can't waste my time anymore. I'm not gonna let my life go on like this anymore. I'm gonna set my priorities at this moment and forget about all those minor shit. When i step my leg in the study in this July, time to get my head concentrate on life.

Have you make a mistake before??

As I know,everybody does..

But did your fellow friends,

beloved family, and the person

whom you've make mistake on him

before, did they forgive you??

Or they just simply say :"I forgive you.."

But in their heart they still will

say:"I'll never forgive you!!"

Who knows??

And this situation is now happened

on me..

 

But who can help me???

Really Hopeless~

 

I really feel depression, that why my right to choose

against my future partner often been scramble..

When I choose to break up with the person that I feel

not suitable for me, is that my fault??

And when I've chosen a Mr.Right and wish to

be together with him, is also my fault??

I really feel very very confused and depression,

but, who knows about it?? >_<

    

 

18岁生日

久违的部落格...你好么...xP 天啊..> < 都长满了杂草了.../.\

我今天就当一天的园丁,帮你拔掉杂草，种上鲜花吧.. :)

刚刚过了我的18岁生日...!! ♥ ( 5月19日)

18岁了咯，长大了...

我不可以像以前一样，像个吃不大的小孩...

呵呵.. (*¯︶¯*)

面子书认识的一位亲爱的 宝丶寳 (BabyBaby) 告诉我...

喝牛奶可以快高长大... :3

OMG !!还有这种道理..-.-

她还真小孩子呢...

哈哈..^^

生日前，换了个发型..电卷勒!!

╥﹏╥ 发现自己变成熟了...

 有没有..xP  你看~~♥

生日的前一晚,本小姐去overtime喝酒和去library pub 参观=P

真感谢朋友和overtime注唱歌帮我唱生日歌,切蛋糕,吹蜡烛,许愿

 

还有overtime老板请我喝酒~!

 

i am happy.....(^o^)

 

then...我做工的同事们还有老板也帮我庆祝生日...

 

 

你看...我笑到几假...  (╯3╰) 

 

无言../.\

 

walao~~到了00.00 ~~十二点鲁...

 

我的电话几十百封信息不停发来..xP 

 

没想到朋友们还会记得我这在丫头的生日... 

 

gam dong 下(　T^T　)

 

 

 

 二姐送我的bag,我喜欢.. ♥

 

妈咪把给我的红包..xP  

 

一位朋友送给我的小小cake...几好吃啦=) 谢谢你

 

哥哥送给我的钱包忘了拍-.-  

 

 

这是他为我准备的蛋糕...♥ 我喜欢...我爱他xP

生日那天的晚上....

我和两个姐姐出去yam cha...

本来还打算去沿海地带，mana tau 满座 -.-

所以过后我们就去tea garden一边喝水，一边吃薯条，一边玩uno还有monopoly...

哈哈，我大姐很noob，一直输...xP 

不过也感谢她请我来这边拉...=) 

这间店的薯条好像不用钱酱，可以refiew的..-.-

总之今年的生日也是蛮有意义的拉...

感谢他为我做的一切..♥

还有senior们陪我一起过...

还有一个笨dear,本来告诉我病了不能打来跟我说生日快乐~

结果晚上还是打来跟我说生日快乐..

我还一直听到他咳嗽-.- 

有心就好了麻~~ 

好啦...就写到这里吧=) 

bye bye 朋友们...♥

 

我们分了.....

哈哈.....

我并没有我想象中的坚强....

我哭了...

哭了好久好久....

之前所答应的东西，全都变成泡影了....

答应会煮意大利面给我吃,

答应会陪我看titanic,小孩不坏，dark flight...

全部都变成了句句废坏...

其实觉得自己很矛盾,

很舍不得你，却跟你提分手了~

我说了天大的谎言，

哈哈~竟然说我想要单身的生活~

我知道我伤了你，

我其实也并没有好过...

对不起，

一切都是我不好~

希望你会遇到更值得你去爱的女生~

祝你幸福....:')


原来自己没有想象中的坚强~

我还是那么脆弱...

我哭了...

我及格了!!

激动的说，考undang的前一天才读~XD

结果隔天就及格了~~

哈哈~XD

很串三百下~xP

最近都一直过着每天重复的生活，

睡醒，做工，吃饭，做工，放工，吃饭，上网，看戏，睡觉...

这就是我每天的生活方式~~

几够力闷~TT

做工其实也够力闷又压力的~...

做错东西就会被supervisor吊~

有时又会遇到那些sot sot得的顾客~=3=/.\

一时说她的猫晕，一时说她的猫泄肚子，一时说她的猫呕~

walao e~~我这边是pharmarcy不是宠物药店~

累咯他~~拿错药又给她骂~~

你看~XD 你看~XD

是不是sot~~还有更多勒~~

说多遇多我都短命啊~><

haha~~被逼抽时间更新，不然被朋友骂~><

写到这先~=P

晚安

XD♥